Interesting post.

Suppose.....just suppose.....that instead of looking for Jesus in a spiritual manner, you were to look for and find Him in the way that the Catholic and Orthodox Churches say He is present in the world....on the altar of a Catholic or Orthodox Church in the form of the Eucharist.

Just a thought.

But really, what exactly is it that you are looking for? Reassurance of your state with Him? Remember, faith is the assurance of things not seen.

And faith is that which pleases Him most.

Cordially in Christ,

Brother Ed