Savin states:
Please don't tell me to simply study the Bible for an additional 5 years or so and maybe something will happen. Nothing has happened for the last 24 years of my torment using this method. There is some missing key, which I feel I must press on until I find. If you cannot help me here, I will continue to search.
Well sir, if you have indeed been studying the bible for as long you say you have, and the Scriptures havn't been made plane to you, then I'm afraid you are deadly right, there is indeed nothing we can do for you. So you have been told what to do, kneel down and pray as you are commanded by the Lord our God, repent and follow Him. Do not ask why, do not pass go, do not collect $200.00. Just simply put your faith in the one that died for you..... FOR YOU! ON THE CROSS, FOR YOUR SINS and STOP this nonsense...... or deny Him, for you can only serve one master.
I believe that the problem you are having is that you are relying on your "feelings" for your spirituality. You are relying on an experiantial faith. This my friend is a very dangerous path. I started out as a free-willed, experiential Christian, racing along up and down in states of emotional distraught. One minute I was High on the mountain top the next minute as low as low can be. I thought about resorting to mistisism, joining a monistary, being caught up in this modern, extistential, post modern, pop culture, experiential, relitive, subjective way at Christianity. Let me tell you, it didn't work! That was ME trying to EARN MY salvation. But the Master has laid it out simply for us my friend. Justification through Faith Alone. Believe in Him who is the Alpha and Omega, believe in Christ and take refuge in His Word.
You say you have read the scriptures for 24 years? I'm sorry but, it does not sound to me like the Holy Spirit then has allowed you to understand their clear message of salvation, repentance and sanctification.
You say you want to SEE Jesus? So do I my friend, so do I, but there is only one way reveiled to us that we may do so. That is either by our death or His second comming and I pray everyday that when that time comes, that the Lord grant me and my family eternal peace in the Presence of His Glory.
SOLI DEO GLORIA!
May His Peace and Grace be with you,
Dave.
