1. I am forced to conclude that you probably have an unbiblical understanding concerning the state of a regenerate man. It appears that you hold that true Christians are some kind of saint in regard to the soul, i.e., you are internalizing and perhaps even externalizing one's life which borders on the brink of a sort of legalism. The Apostle Paul in his autobiographical summary of his life reveals the stark contrast between his unregenerate state where he was self-justified and exalted his standing as a Pharisee, his vast knowledge of Judaism, and his perceived holy life. This he then contrasts with his life after his regeneration, which was antithetical to his former life in every way. However, he also adds his revelation of his soul and the war then existing between the remnant of his 'old man' and that of the 'new man'. He laments that what he knows he should not do and hates is what he too often does. And that which he loves, e.g., the law of God, and yearns to be conformed to it, he too often fails to do. Thus he cries out, "O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death?". But do take careful notice what he then proclaims. It is NOT a cry of desperation and serious doubt concerning his salvation. He writes: "I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin." However, that last statement (Romans 7:25) is the end of chapter 7 but it is also the introduction for chapter 8. In that chapter he does not dwell in morbid introspection of the miserable remnant of sin which remains in him but rather he looks beyond himself and focuses 100% on the person and work of the Lord Jesus Christ of who's perfect righteousness has been imputed to him and therefore he stands perfectly and completely justified and reconciled to God who loves him with an everlasting love.

2. My simple advice to you, my brother, is the following which has been in the hearts and minds of all the saints and will always be their confession as long as the Lord keeps them on this earth: "And straightway the father of the child cried out, and said with tears, Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief." (Mark 9:24) Soooo, get on with your life and exchange your reticent groaning for giving thanks for the great salvation which God has bestowed upon you in the Lord Christ. Raise up your voice in praise and thanksgiving for His incomprehensible gift and press on rejoicing in the power of the Spirit which He has graciously given to you as a witness of His grace and mercy to poor needy sinners like you and me.

3. Let David's song be your song from this day forward:

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Psalms 40:1-17 (KJV) 1 <<To the chief Musician, A Psalm of David.>> I waited patiently for the LORD; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry. 2 He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, [and] established my goings. 3 And he hath put a new song in my mouth, [even] praise unto our God: many shall see [it], and fear, and shall trust in the LORD. 4 Blessed [is] that man that maketh the LORD his trust, and respecteth not the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies. 5 Many, O LORD my God, [are] thy wonderful works [which] thou hast done, and thy thoughts [which are] to us-ward: they cannot be reckoned up in order unto thee: [if] I would declare and speak [of them], they are more than can be numbered. 6 Sacrifice and offering thou didst not desire; mine ears hast thou opened: burnt offering and sin offering hast thou not required. 7 Then said I, Lo, I come: in the volume of the book [it is] written of me, 8 I delight to do thy will, O my God: yea, thy law [is] within my heart. 9 I have preached righteousness in the great congregation: lo, I have not refrained my lips, O LORD, thou knowest. 10 I have not hid thy righteousness within my heart; I have declared thy faithfulness and thy salvation: I have not concealed thy lovingkindness and thy truth from the great congregation. 11 Withhold not thou thy tender mercies from me, O LORD: let thy lovingkindness and thy truth continually preserve me. 12 For innumerable evils have compassed me about: mine iniquities have taken hold upon me, so that I am not able to look up; they are more than the hairs of mine head: therefore my heart faileth me. 13 Be pleased, O LORD, to deliver me: O LORD, make haste to help me. 14 Let them be ashamed and confounded together that seek after my soul to destroy it; let them be driven backward and put to shame that wish me evil. 15 Let them be desolate for a reward of their shame that say unto me, Aha, aha. 16 Let all those that seek thee rejoice and be glad in thee: let such as love thy salvation say continually, The LORD be magnified. 17 But I [am] poor and needy; [yet] the Lord thinketh upon me: thou [art] my help and my deliverer; make no tarrying, O my God.
May GOD be glorified through you.


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