Some part of me very much wishes for God to rule over me. I joyfully and gratefully acknowledge that He is Sovereign, and that I am not.

Yet, my actions too often say the exact opposite. (Rom. 7:24).

Even if my end must be eternal death, I long for it anyway. I want my sinful actions (not to mention sinful thoughts, attitudes, and words) to end, and I want that so much at this point, that I don't really care how, or what comes next.


Aspiring student of Christ